i'm sorry i'm so selfish.
i'm sorry you're the only thing that brings a smile to my face anymore. i'm sorry i'm so screwed up. i'm sorry for thinking i deserve extra effort from you to stay awake when i'm dying for your help. i'm sorry i'm making you put up with me. I'm sorry I'm a burden. I'm sorry I can't even keep myself alive. I'm sorry for thinking this way. I'm sorry for being who I am. I'm sorry I can't think of you when it means blotting out my thin ray of sunshine. I'm sorry I can't be happy. I'm sorry I can't be normal. I'm sorry I make you feel bad. I'm sorry for saying stupid things you could never even understand. I'm sorry for expecting you to understand. I'm sorry for wanting to die. I'm sorry I can't be there. I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry...
Dammit I hate crying...
I wanted to tell you why I hate when you leave... It's because when you leave, I have nothing left to prop myself up... I'm left alone to protect me from myself... It hurts so much... God... I want to run away...