i wish i could tell you the first day of school was so miserable that by lunch i was on teh verge of cutting again.
i wish i could tell you how i feel like all i do is hurt you.
i wish i could tell you that when i feel like dying, one of my thoughts is "i wont hurt him again"
i wish i could tell you that the slightest thought of you leaving the room brings me to tears
i wish i could tell you how hopelessly lost i would be without you
i wish i could tell you i'd take my time with you over anything else in the world. even things that i should be doing.
i wish i could tell you how im thinking of dropping/postponing my college plans just so i could be with you.
i wish i could tell you how hopelessly pointless my life feels.
i wish i could tell you how desperately i want to be myself again--and have you understand.
i wish i could explain how utterly pathetic i really am
i wish i could show you me--behind my mask--without hurting you
i wish i could tell you i'd never hurt you
i wish i could tell you we deserve each other equally.
i wish...
i hope...
i want... to be with you... forever...
if only i could be honest...