I'm confused, so I google the number. It comes up as something from Iowa, so I have an inkling who it is, but I haven't spoken to her in months probably. Back when I had bared my soul and tried to share just how much she means to me and practically begging her to open up to me. And then I never heard from her.
So I figured that was pretty much it. The past few days I've actually been contemplating cutting things off for good with her again, because I know I can hardly control myself with her anyway.
So anyway. I respond to the text saying "Who is this?", and I get a reply saying "Sorry, this is Sansha. I thought I gave you my new number." I replied saying I didn't realize it was her, that I missed her too, and asked her what was up.
No reply.
Like... Really? Don't talk to me for months, then send me a text telling me you miss me? Even though I'm always RIGHT FUCKING HERE whenever you want me? Even though, unlike you, I'm always there when you want me?
Jesus... She fucks with my emotions. She doesn't even know it though, and despite the fact that I know she treats me with less respect than I treat her, I...
I still like what she does to me. I like how she makes me feel. And no matter how much she blows me off or whatever, I'm pretty sure I'm stuck in her head somewhere too.
I fell in love with this girl. I hardly know her anymore, but I've never been able to get over my attraction to her. It hurts in both a bad way and a good way. I feel like I love her and hate her at the same time. I don't know how that even makes sense.