Caitlin linked to an article about FIEA on facebook. I was reading over the article, and it talks about how great FIEA is...
God, I wish I could have gone. I feel like I missed out on life by missing grad school.
The article states how the employment rate for FIEA grads is 90 percent. 100 percent for programmers...
What's the VL employment rate? 20%? There's only a handful of people from my class who are working now in animation...
How did I not see this coming? What made me ever feel like I was good enough to do anything?
Thinking about what I missed by missing out on FIEA just makes me want to kill myself. I won't because it's not worth it, but seriously. I am THAT upset over it. It means THAT much to me.
So here I am wishing I were dead because I'm such a waste of life. I go out into the kitchen to do the dishes, and my dad starts asking me how the job search is going. "Where have you applied to?" "Anything recently?"
I'm not stupid. I know the question he's really asking is "Are you even trying anymore?"
Then he tells me to try a temp agency. Going on about how it's not a real job, but at least I'll be doing something with my life and making money instead of being a waste of space.
Uh huh. I hear you.
Sure. Thanks.
Whatever it takes to make me less of a disappointment to everyone.
I just want to make myself bleed...