I keep a journal for my private thoughts so I can vent all of my darker emotions without hurting anyone else.
Because we all know that most people wouldn't want to listen to these things. Nor can they always understand.
So I talk to myself. Because I'm the only one who understands. And putting it out there on the internet, even in a place where no one may look, helps get it out of my head. One less thing left in there to rot my brain.
The things I write in my journal are not things I'm proud of. They are not things I like to admit I feel. They describe pain that I feel once in a while, and the pain I feel every day.
To let someone read this journal would mean that I would censor myself in writing in the future. I'd be creating apprehension about what the person thinks of me after reading it. The whole point of this journal is to relieve that kind of tension. To create one place in the world where I can say exactly what I want to say, the way I want to say it, about whatever is going on, and talk about whoever is on my mind. Sharing would destroy that. Maybe someday I will share this, when I no longer have a need for it. But not today, nor any time soon.