I had a dream this morning. In the dream, I had very strong feelings for Levi...
I dreamt that my family was keeping exotic (mythical) creatures illegally, and Levi and some other people were over at our house. We tries to hide the creatures to avoid getting in trouble, but we were eventually found out. Within the dream, I knew that Levi had a crush on me, but I hadn't returned the feelings, but it upset me to see him leaving my house. He was visibly upset about how my family kept these pets illegally. I ran into the woods (which surrounded the house) to catch up with him to explain, and he was listing off the reasons for why it was wrong. But I kissed him. I could feel his lips on mine in the dream. He didn't resist until I opened my mouth. He pulled back and said that we shouldn't be doing that, and I told him to think about it and went back to the house. I remember debating in my head what I was supposed to tell Kevin... What I was going to do with my feelings for Levi...
And then I woke up. And I felt stupid. I still felt the residual fondness for Levi from the dream, but being awake, I knew I didn't actually like him THAT much. I remembered how happy I am with Kevin, and that I seriously would not be interested in pursuing another guy. I remembered that Levi has a girlfriend in real life too, and that there never was a time he was interested in me. Yet because of the residual feelings left over from the dream, I felt sad to remember all of these things.
Stupid dreams fuck with my head sometimes. These feelings aren't real.