Maybe I'm not meant to be a rigger... Maybe I was never destined to make it into the credits of a movie...
I'm not good enough... I don't know enough. What I learned in school isn't enough to get me a job anywhere. There's a reason that nobody is getting back to me about jobs. Maybe they're right...
I wish, with all of my heart, that I would have been able to go to grad school...
I feel like I missed the boat. That it was my last chance...
What the hell have I done...
I don't know anything. I'm inexperienced, and I can't get my act together to practice on my own. My work is shit. I can't blame anyone for not wanting to hire me. I'm not worth it, and I can't network if my life depended on it.
I am shit. I feel like shit.
I'm thinking about just trying to turn furry art commissions into a full time thing. I believe I could do it. I'm at least a little more confident in that fact. I have the skills I need to do it. But that's not really what I wanted to do with my life... Nor is it going to make me rich.
What a fucking waste of life.
I've done everything I was told would get me where I wanted to be, and I am nowhere.
Nowhere...